Monday, June 23, 2008
let's flip over to a new chapter & get a kick start.
school finally re-opens today.. and early at 8.44am now, i'm typing this.
these two weeks had been hell for me..
can you believe it?
right after my exam, it's thurs. and while everyone is happily thinking about hovering their subject books across the examination hall literally. i started to panic about the results.. it's always like this, people find it easy, i grumbled that it's hard.. and when i felt easy, they felt elseway.. same goes for attachment; i love it. but i always find people moan.. goodie.. hunnie is there to fetch me home.. he RARELY do that (or he never?).. whatever.. that's comforting enough..
here comes.
6th June: Friday.
we initiated to meet for breakfast coz we've never make it on the time we ought to (ALWAYS!).
coz that whoever fantasies he's in dreamland with, doesn't allows him to get off the bed. how nice i put it huh.. and he fuckingly yell at me when i have to call every shity hours to get this grizzy bear up. who would do until this kinda extend to get pple up to go out, in order to meet on time or to prevent self from flaring further over the already ballooning time he gonna be late. he hang that stupid phone. and i, to come all the way to sengkang to kick him up. i'm already driven to tears and moodless. 12pm++ eat what shit breakfast? he may have found me crying, hoaxed & all. i'm unwilling to let it go, coz the frustration is always there. E V E R Y T I M E ! but strangely, he always put that fire off effortlessly, no matter my determination. & i'm angry at myself for being so lousy.. !#$%^&*@
Sunday: 8th June
we're suppose to meet to sentosa. already prepared for everything; including playing volley (i got ball phobia) which is something outta what i hate & shouldn't be doing. and letting him play with particular some girl who PERSISTENTLY ask him to go and he's ALWAYS on for it no matter our quarrels (tell me who do that?). how cheap can that be? but we didn't go there somehow. a sudden invite to Kungfu Panda with his family at late night ends the day though.
Hell Begins. i shan't elaborate.
the major quarrel or whatever it is occured. (explains my previous entries)
in the verge of snapping up every single minute ticks.
2nd Saturday: 14th June
Got invites from HSA to the zoo.. 2 complimentary entries. saw my indian "husband" with his real gf, Claire, coincidentally.. lol..
this boy wake up 6.45am. tell me he wanna meet 10am. coz he wanna sleep till a later time; 8am. i wanna eat breakfast with the orangutans, by the time meet 10++am the fellows will already be fed.. what shit breakfast is there again. 9.30am he's still blarrdy in bed. pissed. i demand him to cab down. true enough. we met 10.45am. by that time already no breakfast loh.. had kfc and in the restaurant, whoever gets in my way, dies. i can picture myself zwanking everyone down with my fiery anger. saw secondary's junior, Huiqi. i think i'm really hungry; every hungry man is, an angry man, and i'm that. i got better after that. coz i found myself disturbing kiddies, & make faces at them. and bickers with this boy.
can you all believe this picture is taken, with us still haven't picture clear what our status was?
i called that: Bestfriend.
Second Sunday: 15th June.
to bugis with him, his younger brother & his lil sister w/ maid tagging along. watched Hulk. needless to say, late again. walk with them to sim lim sq before i left them for home.
*dark clouds dissolved into nothingness, but there still ain't sunshine in this whole situation*
we can even don't talk. and here comes lightning strike. i tell you, smoking don't solve anything. even if it can lift one from stress. 5 minutes later, you'd fall from "clouds nine" and be slapped back with the original situation. it doesn't change anything to it, but worsen the whole thing instead. only fools would engage in that. & i was to give him 5 days to cease this stupid sudden crave before it come to a complete stop. meanwhile, i was to stop all silly stuffs while he can hurt me with all his words, his shits, his ignorings, EVERYTHING. and smoke his life off with every enjoying sticks (that's the worst). he said he barely even needs 6, but "i take it just because i just feels like to", became 9. he promised he wun take any, after sat. and friday night he said "maybe". how hopeless can that feel? He PROMISED he won't after that night. be my alibi and watchers people.
that night things really went the extreme. and really gone outta track.. i'll skipped that.
things turned a better side..
that night things really went the extreme. and really gone outta track.. i'll skipped that.
things turned a better side..
Third Saturday; 21st June
lil Roxanne's birthday. bought her a big Hello Kitty balloon & a cuddly teddy. no one can imagine how troublesome and big commotion stirred all the way routed to my home and fetch to sengkang by hunnie thereafter. my dear; a grown up guy, carrying big hello kitty. well, i must thank my boy for his effort & going all out. accompany him to Marina Sq for quick lunch before he left for NDP rehearsal. Third Sunday; 22nd June
finally a happy day i can called after so long. met up with HuanJian, Mastura, SohXiong, BoonChong & JinYan for a movie; Don't mess with the Zohan, & some catching up. everyone's late. poor HJ had a hard time struggling time by.. can see everyone had change much after secondary school. SX's weight dropped so much.. *jawdropping*
6.30pm: me & hunnie left the group to Flyer. i wanna take him there as a pre-celebration of our 28th month. but he find it not worth. so had dinner at Jalepeno's Peppers. food was okae, but the mood was right. we confided lotsa stuffs, teasings & how we feel. i'm glad things are kinda back on track now.
*I'm so glad that we talked that night, heart to heart, side by side.*
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