Tuesday, April 27, 2010
i think after all the experience and happenings, i suppose this is the ever last comfort and consolation i could ask of someone of 72. i think i can finally 安心的去了吧..
11:22 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
hey there everyone, i'm back from a year of disappearance. Throughout the year there's alot of happenings ard. i've been wanting to blog on-off, wanna rant it out, wanna confide. but i cant seems to type it out here for this blog is almost as good as dead. people might not even stop by and see what you have to say and bother. i'm just a plain-jane, just another role in ppl's life without a hype, easily forgotten and passed off as a friend or some stranger.
yeah, i broke off. got into another relationship and another another, another another another. and back to paul again. throughout this year, what i can say, this is a stormy relationship. but now, it's at it's calming stage. i dunno when will there be another coming. i hope not.
i've been working night and day as a nurse. i fell. had a downfall. made lotsa mistakes. learnt. picked on. and continue working again. got picked on. stood strong but cried in my bed silently. my drive to work isn't the income, isn't those so-called colleagues i could talk easily with, but its the patients. they make me feel like coming to work more, some knew about my complaints, popped me great treats. i brought in return my genuine smile and sincerity. it's the patients who needs me more than my colleagues fakey pleas & requests. i may have generalized too much of everyone in the ward, but i've a few to thanks & feel grateful about. their cheering and concerns, i appreciated alot. they'll know who they are. despite all the mistakes & pick-ons, the more they wanna bring me down, the more i'll strive to stand strong and persist. i wun cry, wun tear, i'll just listen & say whatever i could to fend myself. i'll only need comfort behind closed doors. that's how i've made it till now. =)
a handful admired that i'm strong, some said i'm just thick-skulled, i'd say all you people need is just a pair of ears, not my mouth to explain. i needed just your eyes to see the truth & my effort.
i've been sent to AH Ward 5 now. greatly with thanks to one of the 3-yrs old, i've became the replacement of her to get here. boring discipline, boring patients, boring regimens. if not why would i be blogging here, fbooking there. without have to say, she just finds it too convenient to use her degree as the excuse to stress the nurse manager. i became the easiest scapegoat to aim at next. seriously, i'm barely 1-yr-old when they ask me to go, BARELY 3 WEEKS to start work there later. tsk tsk tsk.. i felt simply it's because she doesn't wanna leave the comfort zone, she seems to enjoy abusing her power and threw her authority at us just becoz she have got that experience and few megre knowledges.
now, i'm stuck with this boring ward. *grumble fumble*
this is how free i am editing my photos now
7:00 PM
i think after all the experience and happenings, i suppose this is the ever last comfort and consolation i could ask of someone of 72. i think i can finally 安心的去了吧..
