the front part was what beyonce's been thinking.. and how will the guy felt if he's in her shoe.. towards the end, it featured the reality.. the actual think that is happening.. =)
in this song, i think it best describe how i wish i could cruelly do it back to you. i could only think. back to reality, everything's opposite..
12:25 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Eve, goodbye my darling. mummy always love you. love the way you always come up to me and kiss me. love the way you keep hanging onto the metal cage whenever i see you, or whenever i was abt to go out. you're the prettiest lil girl i ever seen. i'm sorry for your death. i caused it. it has been a good 9 months. but it seemed that we've known each other for so long. you're ever the first darling that gave birth to so many wonders. i may be busy and neglect you at times, but i know you never give up hope on my next visit. Adam's gone. so are you. i missed both of you so much that the rest of your children can't take your place. my dearest.. mummy miss you and love you, do take care, sweetie.
1:14 AM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
forgive me.
10:02 AM
Friday, October 17, 2008
New Cheena-doll hair..
very very cheena..
11:49 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Damaged (Danity Kane)
do, do you got a first aid kit handy? do, do you know how to patch up a wound, tell me are, are, are you, are you patient, understanding? cuz i might need some time to clear the hole in my Y and i i tried every remedy and nothing seems to work for me baby, this situation's driving me crazy and i really want to be your lady
but the one before you left me so damaged, damaged, i thought that i should let you know that my Y is damaged, so damaged and you can blame the one before so how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[baby, i gotta know] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[what are you gonna do baby] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[baby i gotta know, what are you gonna do]
do, do you got a first aid kit handy? do, do you know how to patch up a wound tell me, are, are, are you, are you patient, understanding, cuz i might need some time to clear the hole on my heart and i you try to gain my trust, talking is not enough actions speak louder than words you gotta show us something my Y is missing some pieces i need this puzzle put together again
damaged, damaged i thought that i should let you know, that my Y is damaged, so damaged and you can blame the one before so how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[baby you gotta know]
how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[what are you gonna do] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[baby you gotta know] [what are you gonna do]
can you fix my H-E-A-R-T?[tell me can you fix my heart] cuz it's D-A-M-A-G-E-D [don't you know it's damaged] can you fix my H-E-A-R-T? tell me are you up for the challenge?
cuz my Y is damaged, damaged i thought that i should let you know, that my Y is damaged, so damaged [don't you know my Y is damaged] and you can blame the one before [you can blame the one before yeah] damaged, damaged [oh i'm so damaged] i thought that i should let you know, that my Y is [thought i should let you know] damaged, so damaged [oh, oh] and you can blame the one before so how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[it's that type of pain] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[that you feel deep inside] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? [it's that type of pain that] how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?[makes you pray, makes you cry]
my Y is damaged, damaged, damaged [but it's going to be alright one day] my Y is damaged, damaged, damaged my Y is damaged, damaged, damaged [this too shall pass] my Y is damaged, damaged, damaged
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2:04 AM
it's hard when there's a Pauper & a Prince to choose from.
i ain't trying to be some naive kiddies out there.. Prince here & there.. i meant his haughty & egoistic character that only took me for granted. Pauper may not have anything, may be broken, but he does treasure what he has alot.
but i could only stay still, i don't dare to move a bit.
12:19 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Culprit, bring my smile back.
bring my happiness back to me again.
9:16 AM
Friday, October 10, 2008
i found this on my daddy's phone..for ur entertainment. taken when i'm still 19th.. lol..
12:05 AM
Thursday, October 9, 2008
my blog is getting stale, stagnant, spiderwebs, rusty.. whichever you may call it.. i'm sorry people if my blog are not tt well maintained..
BECAUSE OF BIG GOD DAMN REASONS.. LOtS!
let me update u guys..
I just finished a 6 WEEKS attachment.
Been sunking myself in depression everyday; no one wheeled me to a counsellor.
had TWO BLOODY FEVER within a week (last wed & this tues).
my attachment: i've got along well with everyone.. i'm back to ward 53c and 72.
i love 53c's setting.. hope i'd be posted there for coming PRCP(3-4 months of very impt attachment). i'm good with everyone there.
ward 72; i got one word.. BLOODY HELL. ok.. impressively, i survived. we can't do much thing ther, coz it's too specialize in blood related discipline. you know, blood cancer, leukemia, blood disorder.. don't ask me whether is there any catch or not, coz everyone is warded for a reason. lucky enough, all my patients are females and they are exceptionally good with me only when coming to the last week of posting.. had not been for alethia, dhania and jiamin around i guess i'll be eaten up not by staff nurses BUT! that very infamous Jacintha David and Reshmah. that two f-ing bitch born in the year of dog. damn bitchy. make my blood boil only. *grrr* the staff nurses are busy with all their things and could only give us very minimal a& lite job task.. it's not work until very tired, it's too free until we're tt tired. the Nurse Manager - DAMN ON, man... jiamin knows why.. haha..
Depressed: the usual reason with the usual culprit.
FEVERSSSSSsss: i wanna say.. i'm damn scared during the period of my fevers.. that dizzy, headache, nausea, weak and helpless feelings.. i hope that someone would be there for me. he cannot come out tt day. however, on the night itself he could actually come and text me up tt he's going out with friends to volley tml. of all, instead of coming straight for me, to wanna take care of me or bother to visit me for the next day. he chose ENTERTAINMENT AND FUN out there. i'm feeling terrible deep down, inside out. i really dunno what to say. what angered & upset me more is tt, he further tell me about kbox after his volley. where i thought he'd learnt and remedized by looking me up after his freak ball games. the 2nd fever isn't high fever as the 1st, he nv did come though he got good 1hr and a half to get to my place from lot 1, with a slow-eating MacDonald meal pace that is good enough to fit in. he never came only till next day. i really hope someone could give me a good word to explain that hopelessness and feeling i had inside me then.
now.. i'm suspecting i got gastric problems. the kinda pain i dunno how to explain at stomach. it not totally those kinda "AIYO~ AIYO~ I'M DYING...!!" that kinda.. it's tolerable, but weird, but annoying.. for 2days already.. i'm dying soon.. i don't wish to live long anyway..
11:16 PM
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
oh ya one more thing.. j0r...
TAAAADDAAAHHH~!!!(what a big picture! >.<)
She's my AUNT! she's the Champ. that's Yuki.. lol.. basically.. i drop my jaw when she won.. i thought it'd be Freda or Vincent.. to think the night before i watch it, i post tt entry saying tt i dun think she'd win.. oops! heh.. dun tell her.. if not i'll be grab from the neck and stab like one toy bunny by her.. lol..
one last thing.. Sam that main chef/ judge right.. he got buttocks one leh.. very round but to me is very gross.. i like guys without butt..
9:53 PM
Welcome!
It's Me
Ngee Ann Poly
Health Science(Nursing)
Singapore
Cancerian
10th of July 88
Celebrating 32months of anniversary.
(what a big picture! >.<)
