Tuesday, July 8, 2008
yesterday.. i found myself stained in blood.. the feeling of blood dripping down.. a part of me, but no longer mine.. devastated & crying.. it's not the site that hurt.. but rather my heart.. next.. i'm cleaning the scene.. to just make sure no one knows or found what happened to me.. at that point of time, i really wish my whole room will be flooded with my blood..
& i woke up 2.35am.. my surrounding is dark and quiet.. there's no blood around, i wasn't cleaning anything but holding onto my bloster.. it felt as if i've slept a very long time.. thinking back, i really do not know what's with me.. the blood and suicide sttempt.. i hope someone can decode this dream/nightmare of mine..
10:55 AM